KKI ex-entry : “TKI”

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EDIT: I’m reuploading since my friend said he can’t see the pages, I don’t know if it works well now. Well, since the webcomic provider is down and I can’t upload, then I’ll upload it here first. It’s not like there’ll … Continue reading


Happy New Year 2014 all. Sorry it is late and this blog is getting dusty, and so is my deviantart, oh what the hell I am doing until now srsly.

So I will start my first post of 2014 with a rant. Haha when people start the year with some sort of resolutions, really…
Hmmm maybe just a thought, not a rant. Eh whatever. I feel this should be written on blog rather than twitter or facebook so only people want to read it , can see it. And hopefully , if there is people out there thinking the same way right now, thiw post can be helpful.

Just now, I inked my comic. So far it is 25pages inked and 37pages sketched. About 25pages more to go. My hands are full of ink.
Next to my desk is my computer desk, still on with photoshop software opened and there is commission , comic cover, etc.
And not to brag, since 2014 started I turned down quite many job offers because I feel I can’t do any more than these. Yet my friends have been chatting about how hard it is to get jobs these days and tried to manage their wage minimum to 4 million IDR (about 400usd) per month.

Then one sudden thought hit me hard.
What the hell have I been doing?
My friends have stable income — office jobs about 3-4million IDR per month and even manage to do some indie projects on their own. They have so many fanbase, many future awaits, preparing for some contests, they have network connections and perfect work plans. My little brother will soon graduate,work in a big company and aim for a big wage (good luck bro)
While me, doing a non-profitable comic project (well I sell them but the profit is so thin), doing commissions with snail speed, keep going of lame excuse like health issue and whatever, can’t work on office because I am a dropout, keep turning down job offers because keep reminded I cant force my body, and so on so on…

I feel miserable, at this age I still can’t do anything on my own. So depressing. Sure, money isn’t everything. But we need money for living.
And with these thoughts, I feel a bit of regret. It sounds like I am ungrateful for what I have become until now– I regret being “me”. A person who doesnt want to depend on anyone but can’t do anything on her own– how laughable! Even my little brother keep lecturing me on how I can keep going on like this. A person having a drawing skill that not many people have, some people say they envy me, but what is good about it if I can’t live with it ? With that drawing speed…I haven’t finished one single drawing this month! I promised my comic vol2 is released in january and it is still halfway, what the hell??

One and another thoughts keep reflected in my mind. Maybe I am too lazy? Procrastinating too much? What if I fasten my drawing speed? But what if the result is not maximum and the clients don’t like it? If I take some new jobs will my health degrade again? What about my comic? Maybe it is useless to keep working on it? I want to be a person that is responsible of myself. My family have offered me some solutions to start being entrepreneurship but how can I have new job when I cant even take job offers right now!

I regret being like this. Regretting being a small-wage illustrator, being a non profitable comic author, being a sick person.
I kept regretting. Feel like my passion slowly died out. With my hand and maru pen inking page 27, I feel so depressed.
Then, you know, someone say this in my head. For real:

“How dare you.”

I am so surprised. I stopped inking for a while. Not long after that, it started raining.
..well it has no connection, but I have goosebumps. I immediately regret of “regretting things”.
I can’t fix what past have become.
Worrying won’t help anything.
Time always goes on, no matter how useless I am and how long I rant about it. And I realize if I keep regretting , soon it will turn into fear and I won’t move. Forever.
And after that, I keep working till 11 PM.

Thus, my rant ended. Hopefully I won’t rant again for a long time.
So, after all this, I hope 2014 will make me to be a better person, better illustrator, better comic author.
Hope I can finish at least one commission before February comes.

– Mimi N




This below drawn on B5 paper



And this below is in A4 paper, but since I don’t have any manga paper in A4 so I use ordinary 80gsm paper instead. It has slight difference in pen pressure compared to manga paper’s ^^;





still a lot more practice to do ^_^

Redraw (2007~2013)





long way to go to be better ^_^ practice harder!


Note: this image is drawn based on an O2JAM song named “Toccata & Fugue” Back then in 2007 it’s one of the songs I was so obsessed with. I have many sketches drawn based on the songs too , like Bride in Dream, 10%, Cold Scream etc ^^

Practice with G-PEN and MARU-PEN

It’s been a long time I don’t use them, maybe 2years? Anyway when I tried again, I forgot how to use them, ended up being messy >_> it’s a problem, since I plan to use them to make comic for zenon competition. I have to practice from the start again.

The difference is, this time I’m using imStudio B4 paper. When I hold the pen, It felt like I was a decent mangaka, using tools that most Japanese mangaka used ^__^;; and seconds after that, I realized I suck LOL.

Like Miura-sensei said, if you don’t practice much, you’ll end up stay behind. Worse, you’ll forget how to use it.

Here is my first practices:Image

the very first try after years ^_^ using g pen and 100% beta. I spend too much inking lol but you know, it has some..different feels inking those beta compared to just paint-bucketing it on photoshop.


still with g pen, but I used many maru pen on this. I am pretty fond of maru pen, but the line is too thin therefore I have to make the main lines with g-pen first then detail it with maru-pen.

By the way, anyone knows how to make straight line using ruler and g-pen? I tried many times during making beta flash and the ink..well going everywhere. I still don’t know how to make it properly and the tints won’t go crazy like this:


It’s been years and it’s very fun! It’s much more fun than doing digital lining, I don’t know why, eventhough there’s no undo button, still can’t grasp the feel and it’s so messy ^_^ I’ll practice for one week then I’ll have to start doing the comic no matter how bad the result ^_^;

wish me luck~ look forward for another result!